And The Break Is Over

So, yesterday, I didn't get any writing done. I was fretting with homework and other things of the sort. So my goal today was to finally get to 50 pages. Well, I wrote between Modern Art, and about an hour and a half straight in Editing in my notebook, and at the moment, I am up to 54 pages. WOO! Yay me!

Here's what I've discovered, and yes, I'm going to open up about the truth in the story. My story is based on a true event. The whole story is fabricated, mind you, but the idea behind the story is true. One day this year, I was driving to Napa, listening to a song called 5 Years Times, and it dawned on me what I want to be doing 5 years from now, hence, the name of the story. So I made a list; I would have a novel, and a screenplay sold, well, I said two novels, I will have my own place, I would have a dog, I would be a successful Hollywood writer, but I would be living in Seattle, and that I would be married to my ex. It was farfetched, but I had big dreams. In the writing process, I have been trying to pull myself away from the story as best I can, giving my characters there own story. Yes, Danny originally represented my ex, but things are much different now. There is still a piece of him in his character, and there are true memories involved in their, "Remember when,"'s and in their personalities. But as human beings, we can say that a lot of things do get repeated, so I don't find it all that bad for memories to get repeated.

Let me explain the differences now. Since things with my ex and I are getting worse, and the bitterness has finally set in on my part, there is a distinct difference in the way my story is going now. I have been able to actually pull myself from the story a lot better. While Charlotte feels more compelled to pursue this relationship with Danny and get it back on track, slowly but surely, I have completely given up on the idea of my ex and I getting back together, thus, striking marrying him off my list of goals. The more I start to hate him and lose my compassion for him, the closer my characters get to solidifying a relationship, possibly. ;)

I'm not the kind of person you would expect to have bitterness, in any sense. I am incredibly compassionate and loving, regardless of how cruelly people treat me. So for me to say I'm through, is a big step. The line has been crossed, and thus, I am not in my own story because it is no longer my prediction. Sure, there are things about me that happened, that I plan to happen, or that are happening, but Charlotte Hannigan is her own character. Danny is his own character. And there relationship is different than mine.

Thanks For Listening,
Kylee Q Brock